putting faith

                                   I'm sorry. I was the one praying a sincere and very honest prayer, and yet I'm the one who worries deeply about what I have to do next, and what God is going to do. It sucks. I know. But anyway, I have decided on continuing my deep faith in God and on what He can do. I won't limit my God-- that's what I told myself earlier. Though I must say I'm a bit confused as to whether or not I should stay idle about it and not do anything. I believe that God also wants me to do my part-- have deep faith in Him and-- I don't know what to do next. Should I just sit down and relax while God is doing His thing? Or should I just make a teeny tiny move, like talking to someone or do some things. Oh my! I think I'm lost, but I also think I'm right where He wants me to be right now. Patience is something that I should learn to love and develop. God wants me to wait and see what He's going to do next-- I'm not doing that right now with all these tension inside, eager to make sure whether or not God will help me with this thing-- but I know He will. And so, I raise my hands up, look to the skies and try to stop worrying! I have put my faith in God the first time I prayed about that camera, and just because something doesn't seem to be happening yet, doesn't mean I should give up on that faith! I need to give it time, need to relax a bit and let God show His awesomeness!

-- this is still applicable to my situation now although its been a year.