happy birthday

      Happy Birthday. See, I didn't forget, and I think I never will. I had thought otherwise, but I realized I'd never be given that chance to redeem myself neither will I be given the privilege to not give a damn about your birthday because for so long now this day has always been a part of my life's reality. It's the only remaining nostalgia of you in my life. And I could forget all the birthdays I've remembered up to this time, but not yours. I thought I could, I almost even believed I'd be able to go through his year without ever being remembered by this faithful day, but I was wrong. Even at the busiest, most preoccupied, and lousiest time I was still able to pause and remember you, to check the date, confirm that indeed today is your birthday-- I thought I missed it, thought I was a few days late (because I haven't been minding the dates for the past days)-- but then I realize no matter where I'm at, or what I'm doing, or how I'm feeling somehow your birthday always seems to find it's own way into my busy life. -- see how much of an impact your birthday has on my life? I get the notice every year, and with each passing year, I always wish for the same thing. The only problem is, my wish never gets granted EVER-- SUCKS TO BE ME.


-- wrote this about a year ago, I just had to post it.