I feel nostalgic. It's like I woke up and
went 2 years back in time, to the day that almost changed my life forever. I
suddenly feel the presence of someone that wasn't there, I remember the broken
promises that were forgotten long ago, flashes of the special days from the
past lingered in my head. Then I suddenly remembered someone's birthday. I
remember it was a Sunday, and I could hardly celebrate the day with him. The
blurred images were now becoming clearer, the excuses I made up were now louder
in my head, the disappointment was clear. Then there I was, feeling it all
again. The lies, deception, everything else that seemed to matter two years
ago. I hope you're okay by now, hope you've already forgiven my faults and
moved on with your life cause I have. I realized everything that happened in my
life had a purpose and it really was for
the better. If I hadn't done what I did, I don't know where I would be right
now. Wouldn't even be able to picture out my future ahead of me, cause if I had
taken the wrong turn or so things could have gotten worse. But then again,
there's no such thing as the wrong turn cause eventually no matter how I get
mixed up in wrong turns and crooked paths God will still bring me to it if its
really my destiny, the catch is that its either I have to arrive using the easy
way or the hard way. This day has just been so weird and so confusing. Maybe
its because every once a year I remember my long forgotten past and I remember
the guy who made me cry and change my life eventually. Remembering all of it, I guess it makes me
kinda sick in a way that I have to figure out if I'm having hormonal imbalance.
-- wrote this a year and a half ago. Yes, it's that old. And yes, it's an annual thing for me-- this nostalgia.
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