I felt alone. For
the first time in two years, I felt alone. Yes, the laughter and jokes I shared
with my friends couldn't even contain the fact that I was indeed feeling
deserted and I didn't know why. Was it because I wasn't given enough attention
by my friends? Of course not, they always, always give me more than enough of
their attention. If that's not the case then, what is? Am I feeling so alone
because I don't have a boyfriend or a special someone to share my feelings
with? Well, the answer would have to be no. Of course there were times that I
wished to have someone to share my life with but that's not the reason. I lived
my whole life without a boyfriend by my side what makes it any different today?
Is being too far away from home that much of a drama that it could cause a
certain depth of loneliness in you? I don't think so. Honestly, I have no idea
as to why I'm feeling lonely and deserted and all the more sad. I didn't do
anything that could trigger that much sadness. And as far as I'm concerned, no
one has ever hurt me for the past two years that would result in my melancholic
behavior. Fuck. That's just it. I'm lost. Really lost. I don't know why this is
happening to me, I haven't got a clue. And please, would you stop that already
Mr. I'm so alone right now?! Go fuck up somebody else! You're ruining my
beautiful life! I'm not supposed to feel this way, I'm not supposed to be sad!
NO ONE DIED! Get it? NO ONE! So that doesn't give me the right to be sad or to
shed a tear. And you're here pestering my so happy life, trying to make me feel
alone. Well guess what? It's taking effect, I AM FEELING ALONE! Are you happy
now? Could you just stop it already? Cause we both know I've had enough
>.<
-- this post seems way off its embarrassing. But I'm entertained, and I wonder how I could've written something like this.
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