sheer bliss

                          Like the lyrics to the song "Need You Now" by Lady Antebellum, these are my picture-perfect memories which are scattered all around the floor. When you feel those memories are there but you still question yourself if they were real because last time you checked you were far from ever grasping them-- just like that one great love you thought you could let go-- and you question your heart if it really did happen, if you have really let go, because it's not happening any second now, nor any second after that. And you just wish life didn't have this funny way of saving frozen moments in your mind like photographs you hold in your hand, because the instant your eyes see the picture that moment becomes real and even for just a split-second it becomes alive in you.

                      Anyway enough of this love drama, I was away for a month and I just want to say I missed the internet! Although the internet could never compensate for my sheer bliss while I was away in the countryside, still I'd say I'm glad to be back here writing again. At least I took my journey with me and turned it into something that I could share with everyone and not just myself. There are so many good memories to choose from and I'm just taken aback by the good, therapeutic, stress-relieving vibes I got when I stayed there in complete isolation from the city. Country life has never been this great. I realized the contentment of one person varies from another because I have never felt so much contentment in my life until now. Country life makes you happy with what you have, and it makes you settle for what you have. Of course, on a larger note, only dumb people would settle for less, but I'd rather be happy with what I have now than gaining more and still not being happy. I guess I'm the type of person who values inner peace more than luxury things because I found the life I lived for a month so comfortable than my life here in the city. No telephone, no internet, no malls, no refrigerator, no cable, and sometimes no water, but I felt happy and I felt complete. If only everyone feels the way I do, then no one has to go and leave their family because everyone would be content with what they have, but then the world just doesn't work that way does it? There would always be a lack to almost anything and everything. And everyone needs to have this and that more than anything else. I believe God put me up there for a purpose, and maybe that purpose was to discover that I can be happy with small things too, that I can go back, look the past in the eye and not run away anymore, that I can enjoy the little things life offers me because I have gotten way ahead of myself in the past months, and I needed serious briefing.